It's 1 am and I feel like writing. What else would I be doing, SLEEPING?? Pfft.
It's kind of strange that I'm actually using this as a journal. I've never kept a journal before really. Maybe it would be good if I did.
The last few days have been boring. REALLY boring. It's because it's the days after something exciting happened, and the days before something else exciting will happen. Does that make sense? Hehe. School will be starting this Monday and I can't wait, though I keep having anxiety and nightmares about it. I hate how apprehensive I am about things. I know that once it starts, everything will be fine. I have a lot of exiting classes this semester, like Critical Thinking, and Biology that actually has a lab. That will be really interesting because I've sort of decided on some kind of scientific career and I need to find out what I really want to do. And once school starts and I get used to the schedule, I won't have dreams that I'm wandering around the campus in a panic because I've forgotten where I'm supposed to go and my paper with my schedule on it has mysteriously vanished
Prior to these past few boring days, I went on a camping trip with my family which was very relaxing and fun. I really needed it. There's something about sitting around a campfire, wandering by myself down trails along cliffs by the ocean, and listening to the crashing waves that clears my mind and helps me forget about everything. I felt very at peace, despite all my...issues..lol. It's not that life is overly stressful right now. I know other people are having more difficulty than me. I just wish a few things were different. Nature just helps take my mind off of things and reminds me that the world is still a beautiful place
Hmm...another thing that's been going on is that I suddenly feel drawn to this small town in northern CA called Arcata. I've never been there, only seen a few pictures and read a little about it, and suddenly I want to live there and go to school there. Maybe it's where I'm meant to be, or maybe it's totally unrealistic, I don't know. I did read that Humboldt University's top majors are Biology and Art which I think is cool (especially the Biology). It's right in Arcata, and appears to have trails leading into the redwood forests right at the college! O_O That's totally awesome. Still, I'll have to go there sometime in order to see if I really like it before I make any decisions, and who knows when that will happen, it's about 200 miles north...Besides, I'm still considering going to UC Davis which is a lot closer.
Well, I think I'm out of thoughts. I don't really know what else to write about. I just felt I had to get all my thoughts out, but if anyone takes the time to read it, that's fine with me, lol. Anyway, goodnight. I'm so tired now, and I have a headache. *sigh*
I just had to choose "apprehensive" as my mood because that's an awesome smiley. Plus it kind of fits.